Helen is going to have a week of leave in february...
and she is going to meet her old partner toadie!
WAHAHAHAHAHA....

I want to thank you.. for everything.
Today I looked at his reflection and wondered 'why me?'
And remembered the conversation we once had.
I am glad, to have that cheque on my hand still =)



I like it sweet.
The taste is so much better.
It's my comfort food.
Don't u agree?

Happy New Year!!!

I had finally completed my 6 days of morning shift....
I AM SO HAPPY CAUSE I GOT TO SLEEP LONG HOURS ON MY OFF DAYS!!!!!



My last 3 days of morning shift was HECTIC!
Can die working.
3 blood transfusions, 1 abdominal tap, 1 new admission, 3 discharges.
And whole morning I was busy with my 2 gastro patients.
I don't like gastro cases... always that many orders during doctor's round.
And when I wanna do the changes, another medical team would take away the casenote to review.
When the casenote is finally back, KAOZ..... million of things were ordered.



We were allowed to go home early after passing over to the next shift during the first few days of cny.
But I always left the ward even later than my usual time.
IT WAS SO BUSY!!!!



Sister Janet was back from her leave today.
I was so glad to see her..
She is an reinforcer at work, always making sure there r enough manpower in our station, n do her best to reduce our workload.
If only she was around that past few days, things might be lighter.
She treated us to Pizza today...
We will not be starved with her around, as she always make sure her nurses eat something no matter how busy we r.
I used to be irritated when she pushed me to eat when I was SO BUSY.
She would nagged at me n insist I go. She always tell us 'nurses r always busy... work is never ending. but u still need to eat!'
Now, I am so grateful to her =)



Mum is a very traditional woman.
SHe doesn't allow me to stayover at guy's place (definitely la),
and sometimes even worried when I stayed at my galfriend's house.
So I'm surprised when mum allow, and SUGGEST ming to stay overnight at our house on some nights because he looked too tired to drive back home.
So cute.
And he drove me to work early in the morning during cny.
N I got to sleep later... how nice =)


more updates coming....

Documentations are vital

I realised there are no photo posts lately...
I guarantee there will be a lot next week -_-


I was surprised when I entered snb website to print my cne points.
22 points!!! despite the very little effort of attending any talk or seminar last yr.
The previous yr I only had 4 points?
This yr I met the requirement...! =)
Thanks to the 2 days patient counselling course I attended few months back,
1 day of course was 8 points!!! SO HAPPY =)
They should send me for more courses and training....



Today I was kinda upset with what Tini told me.
Realised that politics at work could cause so much damage to a person's capability.
I am upset because someone had the impression that I do not know my work well.
It made me feel dumb u know.
How will u feel when u work so hard n careful to prevent any mistakes,
but when the unpredictable happened eventually,
u got the blame?
It is demoralising.
Because u r accused of not doing the right thing when u had.
Explanations became invalid.
No documentations= work not done.
I learnt my lesson well. I will document EVERY LITTLE THING, from now.

3 more morning shifts to go... and I can sleep till sunset.

Today I had an appointment in clinic B after work.
I was quite worried actually.
I seemed to have most of the symptoms.
- cough n flu
- fever on n off
And so when the registrar examined my thyroid and told me to raise my hand horizontally,
she said my thyroid seemed enlarge and I looked septic.
SHIT I thought.



She sent me to another room n a nurse took 3 tubes of blood for TB quantiferon (a test to diagnose TB).
Haiz..
I always take bloods for my patients, and now it is my turn.
And everytime my patients would gave me the sian look when I explained the need for blood taking.
It does hurt.
Hours after the blood taking, my hand was still numb.
I wondered how my patients endured frequent 'poking' especially if their veins are difficult, which required more than 1 poke.
;(

I had taken my health for granted then.
How I regret.
Hopefully the blood test results would be good news 3 weeks later.
The thought of having to go through 6 months of treatment or worse, make me sad.

boyfriend

I have to thanks him for being that sweet boy.
Condoning my demands and unreasonable arguments.
And for tolerating my unpredictable temper.



Lina pulled me to a corner of the room when we were at work yesterday.
She thought something bad had happened between my bf and I, which was a moment of impulse.
So sweet of her...
Anyway glad to say... it was resolved -_-
After all, these few years together didn't come in vain. =)



I remembered a close friend used to tell me not to put in so much trust n effort into this relationship.
I might end up even hurt and depressed if he were to fail me some day.

But she doesn't know,
he did not fail me.
Instead, I am the one whom had always disappoint him.

Say, if I were to leave SGH after my remaining 1.5 yrs, where would I be?
HHHMMMmmmmmmmmm.....


I do enjoy my work.
BUT...
Some factors cause more stress than satisfaction at work.
- super stress with appraisal because of my outstanding mc last yr and super low ward attendance.
- having to entertain non- nursing workload at work, which deprived us precious time for truly important things.
- and so much of discipline, rules & regulations to abide. *stressful environment*



All the more I should study degree,
and with that I would leave the hospital... bye bye then.



Wonder if I would still hold the same thinking after my bond complete.
Who knows I might be so attached to sgh by then... *_?



I am working permanent morning shifts until next wednesday.
They intend to let me do massive discharges everyday this week for cny.
-_-'''
6 days straight of waking up damn early. SHUCKS.
I am not a morning person.


Looking forward to cny...
not because of ang baos...
But new clothing to wear wohoho =)

What to say?
If only I could change my attitude in a relationship.
Less demanding and more magnanimous.

2 hours of pumping on my 1st nite.
And the last 2 nites were big projects.
I'm so glad it was over.
I deserved my 5 days off =)



Today at Orchard with Jen,
I bought the white skirt I saw the other day,
and 2 pairs of shoes...
My... Can someone teach me how to curb my spendings?



Have I not mention my resolutions for this yr?

1st- lesser mc. by half.
2nd- spend wisely. and save more.
3rd- look after my health.


Simple not?

My pet, Micko

I started playing pet society in facebook lately...
Not exactly like neopet, u do more than feeding and playing with it.
U earn coins by playing games, visiting friend's house, bathing n brushing them, and of course feeding them.
And with the coins, u got to buy food, furnitures, clothing and other cute things...
Each stage u go, u earn an extra room.
Interestingly, u got to decorate n arrange ur newly bought furnitures in ur own rooms...
COOL ain't it.

Sounds pretty lame when I first started.
But I got a little obsessed after some time.
My pet is similar to me in a way.
We both like to spend. HAHA



And thank u XL for giving me a bed n sofa...
My pet is so happy! lolz



Today was my off day...
Went to Crystal Jade @ vivo with family n ming for makan.
Yummy... I simply love the 'liu sha pao'.



I bought a top again =)
Shopping always make a gal happy.



Nite shift coming up 2 days later,
but I still feel giddy n nausea.
Hope I can survive through my 3 nites.


I need my vitamins!

One of my new year resolution is to decrease my number of mc by half!


How?
I am sick again =(
Thanks god I'm off tomorrow.



Finally met up with poly cliques yesterday for our belated xmas gift exchange cum dinner.
So overdue... haha.
We had dinner at Jack's Place @Heeren. Steaks, salad, ice cream, chicken wings and tea
Everyone had a gift..... Plus the shirts I got for them from HK...
And CF's makan for us from Macau...
Nice nice... So festive ar. haha



Yesterday I did my clinical teaching round in the tutorial room.
I presented a case on my young patient whom was dangerously in ill.

She cried when she was told about her condition yesterday.
I am sad for her.
She could have a bright future but.....

Her mother would walk out of the room and get updates on the condition.
SHe doesn't want her daughter to see the agony n sadness inside her.
It must be painful to see her beloved daughter sufffering.

Today I saw the patient n the mother.
No more smiles on their faces.
My heart goes out to her.

Work issue

There are many times, especially the first few months at work,
thoughts of quiting after my bond occurred.
Even now, I still wonder if I should continue nursing after my remaining 1.5 yrs bond.

I would never forget that agony period during PRCP and that first 3 months as a registered nurse.
OMG. LIKE HELL.
Pressurized with workload, and stressed with my ever so demanding preceptor with 5 yrs of working experience, whom expected me to be as good as her.
She must think I am PERFECT.



I know some of my colleagues are upset n demoralised at work.
I couldn't say much to encourage them, because I don't know what kind of situations they are facing.
Just hope that they will gain more confidence, and don't let the past experiences hinder them.
What matters most is the present and the future.



Frankly, I also made many mistakes (though not so major) when I first started.
But it was a big deal to myself because they were mistakes which could be prevented if I took extra measures.

A friend told me I am a perfectionist whom expect the best, or rather perfection in everything I do and on others.

But I too learnt, I will not survive long if I can't let go of such situation.
I realised mistakes r inevitable, esp in this job.
I should learn to move on, and learn from it.
Over and gone.
So what if I had done something wrong, but harmless then?
Keep in mind and do the right thing now, is the way.



I hope, those whom r depressed and wanted to give up at work,
look at it in another light.
Nothing is that bad until u give up.
Do u think the latter part will do u any good if you rather avoid than facing the difficulty?
Ain't life all about challenges?



What doesn't kill me make me stronger =)



Somedays I seemed unapproachable and unfriendly.
I could be irritated at work, or bothered by personal matters too.
I know u r reading this.
Hope u will feel more encourage =)

Child's definition of LOVE

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?"
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
See what you think:



"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen," Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6

"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them." Jenny - age 8

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore," Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine -age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8

My 1st 2009 post

Happy new year to everyone while reading my 1st post in 2009 =)
Have anyone reflected back to last yr, and determined if it was memorable?
I had concluded mine as one.



On the last day of year 2008, we went St James to countdown.
I prefer powerhouse than dragonfly... The music are MUCH nicer, and more high.
We returned to sis's group at dragonfly for countdown during the last few mins.
WRONG CHOICE. Shd have stay put in powerhouse to countdown haha.
The songs in dragonfly sucks during that last few mins.
I thought I had stepped into a teochew concert. WTH


Here are the pictures.... =)

*clap clap*

weird faces

We left early and ming sent us home...

REched home at 3am plus...

And slept for only 2 hours and woke up for work, haha.

Kudos to CF and I, both of us working morning shift.

Thanks to ming, whom slept in the living room for that 2 hours n sent me to work that early.

And I had mac's breakfast too :)

And after work, we went to beach road to buy some things and had early dinner.

It was good...

We had 2 person's set meal-

-herbal prawns (n the prawns r fresh),

-veg (kai lan n mushrooms),

-beancurd (my fav egg bancurd),

-noodle soup and lastly dessert (white fungus with rock sugar).

Only for $35 bucks. No GST and no SERVICE CHARGE.

But their service was good and the staff were initiative when serving us.

I told ming I am so willing to pay them service charge for their humble services -_-''

I was reading a primary school friend's blog for the 1st time and felt the emotions he had when going through breakup with his gf of 3 yrs.

And guessed the possible reasons why the gf left.

Ain't it sad?