EHJ Escapade

EHJ finally met!
Short but sweet enough. lol.



One whole day of eating.
From the hour I woke up, till past midnite now. lolz.
Lunch at Ajisen with Roger,
Dinner at Min's house,
Supper at Xin Wang.
If only I could spend everyday like today, I would be fat :)
How nice.



Mr Ken said I looked malnutrition when we met up after a decade.
(*&^%$£$%^&*(&^%$)
And Roger said I looked even skinnier than he last saw me months back.
Min n yun said I still look that thin.
Hmmm.. work is really tough ar? haha.



Photos time.... -_-!!!





EHJ

Yesterday met up with Sharon n JJ for dinner at TM.

And I pull them to take photos at a corner...

stupid rite? haha.

I need photos to update my facebook, if u believe me lolz.

trying to act couple.

hao pei wo!!!!lolz

gotcha!

During a conversation with Min, she asked if I am XIN FU (fortunate).
Coincidentally when I came online, Ken told me ming is a rare guy whom I shd appreciate and love.
ANd having known some of the mishaps that happened to my close friend,
I feel I am really XIN FU.
=)



BF whom always try to meet me when he books out on weekends,
whom accompanied me when he has night's out though it was short,
whom sent me to work n fetch me for supper sometimes,
whom tried his best to work things out,
whom always give in to me when I was at fault obviously,
whom forgives n forgets my wrong doings,
whom give a big damn to what I said now,
whom does things for my own good,
whom asks for my consent to go out with female friends,
whom never stops me from going out with male friends alone,
and whom always trust me so much.


Darn.
So why am I complaining that he is not doing much then?
I feel so ashamed thinking of that.
Fact is, we used to quarrel because I always wanted more.
But many times I feel I am not giving as much as I am receiving.
It is unfair to him, yet he never complains.
And he is always content and happy with everything I do for him.


Like what Jie said, Think of what he has done n not what he has not do.
I'm more sensible to understand that now.
Do not want to regret only when I lose it =)

August Rush

I borrowed ming's hard disk and happily enjoying the number of movies inside....

Just completed watching August Rush, and oh my......

It's beautiful.

Especially Freddie Highmore.

I have a soft spot for cute stray little boys.

Don't you love them??

Valentine's Day

I reached home, on my laptop, went to facebook, while waiting to go out again.
Browsing through the valentine's photos posted by a few friends.... -_-''
And surprise not, I only have 1 photo to share for that day....


I used to believe beautiful moments should be captured down and kept as lovely memory when looked back someday,
but now I think not EVERYTHING needed pictures to support it's existence, nor as a yardstick to measure the happiness level.
*wah... so unlike me* -_-''''



ANyway....
I had a breathtaking valentine's day with ming.
I screamed, and I thought I was going to die at some points.. haha. (Ok, that's exaggerating).
http://www.forestadventure.com.sg/



At one particular tough trail,
my hand ached from holding tight onto the rope above my head,
and trying to balance myself on the rope while walking to the other tree above the ground...
It was..... OMG -_-''''''''''''''
It wasn't really THAT high.... 5 metres from the ground...
I was kinda shaky at the beginning.
I'm afraid of heights.. haha.



This is my favourite moment.
Above the water and the tree....
It's so..... FUN!!!!!
ANd it is not a bit scary like it seemed to... !!!!



At the end of it, I told ming it was indeed an unexpected outing.
ANd he said this is to prepare me for the next big thing next yr....
HHHHHHHHMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm??????
Maybe I would be going to the real jungle next year? haha.



We were partially covered with sand from all the landing..
And we went back to the hotel he booked and changed, before having dinner nearby.
Night time, we watched the pursuits of happiness from my laptop...
I would love to have ALL the movies n music in his hard disc... It's amazing.



I gave him a bag which I bought few days back at town.
And he said I'm finally learning to buy practical things which he needs...
Hmmm.. -_-''

And this is my only picture ;)

I have a new pair of levis jeans again!!
How nice.
But a waste on someone whom doesn't wear jeans often.
Maybe I should start to wear jeans always from now. haha.



I forgotten to mention this... But... I went to meet Mr Toad on the Friday 13th.... A decade since we last met. haha. Ain't it nice to catch up with someone whom had left unforgettable memories in ur life before...????? lolz. And we drank sake early afternoon...... warm sake taste nicer I think... Watched look for a star after lunch, hmmmm... kinda cute movie la haha.


I clicked onto my archives in my previous blog to check out something...
And while reading though the period I first started as a junior nurse during my 1st few months...
I'm amazed on how I used to take things so hard on myself then.
Ain't it nice to know many things r within my control now? :)
It gave me a sense of satisfaction after a year n half in nursing.
Interestingly, someone (forgotten who) actually asked what I see myself a few yrs later...
'I don't know'.
I'm still uncertain of the path ahead.... despite having complete half my bond...
I'm not someone whom plan my route specifially, or a goal to reach at a certain age.
Mine is simple... I will complete my remaining bond, and study degree at the meanwhile,
after which I will decide the path to take...
free n easy.

I had watched almost all the highly recommended movies lately.
Inkheart with CF and Liz days ago at woodlands,
and Underworld with ming n his friends at TM just now.
Left Benjamin Buttons which we intend to watch coming weekends =)
Oh my.... If only there's MIO Movie instead of MIO TV, I would have subscribe long ago...



And i finally paid a visit to ming's mum after work today, on the 2nd last day of cny -_-''
We had black pepper crabs and noodles etc at a well known stall in Joo Chiat...
I'm surprised with the amount we ate... plate of veg, salad you tiao, hor fun, 2 black pepper crabs.
Ming didn't eat a single bit- he was saving his stomach for subway at the later part.
And he watched us devoured the food down into our stomach... happily.
And we did finish everything.... *slurp*



Sidetrack a little....
Sister Janet was going through my appraisal today,
and I requested for transfer to a surgical ward.
-_-
Hmmm.... kinda sudden too.
But I feel I need to have more experience in other areas at the shortest time...
To enable me for more opportunities in the near future.
Having spent 1.5 yrs in the medical ward, it's time for me to move to another discipline.
And being able to survive in one of the busiest medical ward, I guess I can do well in surgical side too.. I hope so la...
Anyway the transfer would be kept in view.
Not that soon... Within 6 months to a yr. Depending on staffing as well...
Well... I'm excited haha.

Helen is not going on AL yet..
And she is going to work till she drop flat on the ground again... =(
URGH.
When exactly is my AL??
I need a BREAK!

Singing Therapy

Yesterday we worked till we dropped flat to the ground.
And today we had a dramatic session in the day room when 1 unknown visitor threw fits and needed medical attention.
-_-''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''
Thanks goodness it all happened in the ward.



Nonetheless it was a valuable experience.
Such things do not happen to our everyday life often,
but it will come in handy when situations occured unexpectedly.



Lina and I went for K dinner at Marina Square after work today.
Sing, Sang, Sung.
It is really de-stressing after screaming and pulling my throat on the mike for nearly 5 hours...
-_-''''
Retail therapy is great, so is singing therapy =)

Am I too confident or should I say I am just optimistic?
But I feel I am good enough and know what I am doing.
I do not need to live in her expectations and make life difficult for myself.
Shouldn't this be the way?
Work the way we want and do things right.
No regrets, no hard feelings and no pressure...

Watched this movie with Cf yesterday at Marina Square...
Sweet and funny...
True friends are inseparable and forgiving...
Difficult to come by but I believe it does exist =)



Hmmm....
How's my wedding going to be like then?
HAHAHAHAHAHA....
Sometimes thinking of it could be funny...
And even funnier when I share it with ming.
-_-''''



Just 2 hours of meeting him is good enough.
Eating, chatting, smiling n strolling holding hands..
Simple things could make me smile...
Ain't it nice to put away the complex minds and live harmoniously...?

Chinese New Year

I have yet to go bai nian at ming's place... ooopppssss.
Had been a packed week.
And tonight his dad is flying back to Thai.
Hmmmm.... hmmmmm..



We had our reunion dinner this year at home as always...
We pre-ordered a few dishes (mutton, yu sheng and duck) from outside, to make cooking easier for mum this year.
She only need to prepare the remaining dishes for dinner.. how nice :)
Ming joined us for reunion dinner and slept over at my place,
and the next morning he sent me to work.

We had majong after dinner...
Mum, tony, ming n I...
Wohoho.
I was the big winner. So happy =)


Fa Cai Yu Sheng (before)


Dressed up Fai Cai Yu Sheng (after)


whole chicken


shark fins


abalone

red wine from ming

glass of red wine

golden pillow- inside is curry chicken

Machiam HUGE burger

*slurp slurp*

prawns

golden pillow- curry chicken

mushrooms, fish maw, veg

And my 5 fan majong game which won me MONEY $$$

CNY day 1-
I'm the only chinese working in my station that day.
And work was BUSY than usual.
Maybe my patients decided to create a havoc on a new year ya?

After work went to Sheng Hwa's house at Yishun with Lina.
And ate my first meal at her house.... SO HUNGRY.
Stayed for an hour and we left for our next destination separately.
Meet Sharon n Kelly at JJ's house with ming at Tampines...
That was the only day whereby most of us could make it, so it was kinda rushing.


Lina likes to play with fire crackers..

Us at sheng hwa's place

At JJ's place

CNY day 2-
After work, met up with Joyce, Anna, Lina and sujing to my house...
Dinner and majong-ing at my place...
Mum prepared the chicken, duck and yu sheng for dinner...
She went to buy yu sheng again, specially for my colleagues n I to 'lao'.
So sweet ar.
And Lina finally had the chance to tell my mum how fabulous her cooking is. (because mum always prepared food for me to my workplace and Lina always has a share of it n she loves it lolz)

We played majong that nite...
And the 2 women whom claimed they r newbies, won the most money -_-'''''''''

My room..

After our majong session..

striking the girly pose

taken from a different angle..

CNY day 3-
My off day finally.
I swear to sleep till the sun set but mum pullled me out of bed early in the morning.
And went Orchard with sis and mum for post cny sales.
Ended up at Swensen's for lunch before leaving.... DIAOZ.

Coincidentally we each wore a primary colour

mum n I

sis n I

CF and LIz came to my place in the afternoon to bai nian...
A very special day for CF because she DROVE all the way to fetch LIZ from work to my house, and from my house to Jurong ALONE (without parent's companion)!!!!!
The journey there was funny.....
1st time being CF's passenger- but I feel so secure haha.
She drove me to Tampines Ikea where I board ming's car.

And her car followed us all the way to Jurong.
Throughout the journey, I have to remind ming to drive slow to keep track of them.
Unfortunately, there were many vehicles at a point where we need to cut lane n turn...
It was a moment of THRILL when ming stopped halfway suddenly and blocked the cars behind, letting CF to cut into the lane infront of us quickly. (or she wld miss that lane and have to travel all the way down to somewhere..)
Eventually... We reached Tracy's house SAFE N SOUND -_-''''''


We had steamboat at her place and played the goldminer card games.
Interesting mind game....
And we left her place after a few game rounds.
Again, ming and i in the car infront, while cf n liz followed behind.
We drove to AMK first, to direct CF home.
And when she parked her car, Liz board onto our van and all the way back to Seng Kang haha.
It must been a tiring and exciting ride for CF n Liz

The car which we have to escort... lol

us at tracy's place



CNY day 4-
Went to downtown east for movie all's well ends well, with Liz during noon time.
That movie is much more worth to watch than the 2 local cny films.
And interestingly funny =)

Nite time went to ming's club to swim..
FREEZING COLD!!
I stopping swimming after 3 laps, and went to the jacuzzi instead...
The hot water is so COMFY!!!!!!!!!!!!
U know that kind of soothing feeling when u shower in hot water after getting drenched in the heavy cold rain.

And went to our favourite stall at roxy square to eat ban mian...

Tian Mi Mi...

That's how I feel now =)

Helen is going to have a week of leave in february...
and she is going to meet her old partner toadie!
WAHAHAHAHAHA....

I want to thank you.. for everything.
Today I looked at his reflection and wondered 'why me?'
And remembered the conversation we once had.
I am glad, to have that cheque on my hand still =)



I like it sweet.
The taste is so much better.
It's my comfort food.
Don't u agree?

Happy New Year!!!

I had finally completed my 6 days of morning shift....
I AM SO HAPPY CAUSE I GOT TO SLEEP LONG HOURS ON MY OFF DAYS!!!!!



My last 3 days of morning shift was HECTIC!
Can die working.
3 blood transfusions, 1 abdominal tap, 1 new admission, 3 discharges.
And whole morning I was busy with my 2 gastro patients.
I don't like gastro cases... always that many orders during doctor's round.
And when I wanna do the changes, another medical team would take away the casenote to review.
When the casenote is finally back, KAOZ..... million of things were ordered.



We were allowed to go home early after passing over to the next shift during the first few days of cny.
But I always left the ward even later than my usual time.
IT WAS SO BUSY!!!!



Sister Janet was back from her leave today.
I was so glad to see her..
She is an reinforcer at work, always making sure there r enough manpower in our station, n do her best to reduce our workload.
If only she was around that past few days, things might be lighter.
She treated us to Pizza today...
We will not be starved with her around, as she always make sure her nurses eat something no matter how busy we r.
I used to be irritated when she pushed me to eat when I was SO BUSY.
She would nagged at me n insist I go. She always tell us 'nurses r always busy... work is never ending. but u still need to eat!'
Now, I am so grateful to her =)



Mum is a very traditional woman.
SHe doesn't allow me to stayover at guy's place (definitely la),
and sometimes even worried when I stayed at my galfriend's house.
So I'm surprised when mum allow, and SUGGEST ming to stay overnight at our house on some nights because he looked too tired to drive back home.
So cute.
And he drove me to work early in the morning during cny.
N I got to sleep later... how nice =)


more updates coming....

Documentations are vital

I realised there are no photo posts lately...
I guarantee there will be a lot next week -_-


I was surprised when I entered snb website to print my cne points.
22 points!!! despite the very little effort of attending any talk or seminar last yr.
The previous yr I only had 4 points?
This yr I met the requirement...! =)
Thanks to the 2 days patient counselling course I attended few months back,
1 day of course was 8 points!!! SO HAPPY =)
They should send me for more courses and training....



Today I was kinda upset with what Tini told me.
Realised that politics at work could cause so much damage to a person's capability.
I am upset because someone had the impression that I do not know my work well.
It made me feel dumb u know.
How will u feel when u work so hard n careful to prevent any mistakes,
but when the unpredictable happened eventually,
u got the blame?
It is demoralising.
Because u r accused of not doing the right thing when u had.
Explanations became invalid.
No documentations= work not done.
I learnt my lesson well. I will document EVERY LITTLE THING, from now.

3 more morning shifts to go... and I can sleep till sunset.

Today I had an appointment in clinic B after work.
I was quite worried actually.
I seemed to have most of the symptoms.
- cough n flu
- fever on n off
And so when the registrar examined my thyroid and told me to raise my hand horizontally,
she said my thyroid seemed enlarge and I looked septic.
SHIT I thought.



She sent me to another room n a nurse took 3 tubes of blood for TB quantiferon (a test to diagnose TB).
Haiz..
I always take bloods for my patients, and now it is my turn.
And everytime my patients would gave me the sian look when I explained the need for blood taking.
It does hurt.
Hours after the blood taking, my hand was still numb.
I wondered how my patients endured frequent 'poking' especially if their veins are difficult, which required more than 1 poke.
;(

I had taken my health for granted then.
How I regret.
Hopefully the blood test results would be good news 3 weeks later.
The thought of having to go through 6 months of treatment or worse, make me sad.

boyfriend

I have to thanks him for being that sweet boy.
Condoning my demands and unreasonable arguments.
And for tolerating my unpredictable temper.



Lina pulled me to a corner of the room when we were at work yesterday.
She thought something bad had happened between my bf and I, which was a moment of impulse.
So sweet of her...
Anyway glad to say... it was resolved -_-
After all, these few years together didn't come in vain. =)



I remembered a close friend used to tell me not to put in so much trust n effort into this relationship.
I might end up even hurt and depressed if he were to fail me some day.

But she doesn't know,
he did not fail me.
Instead, I am the one whom had always disappoint him.

Say, if I were to leave SGH after my remaining 1.5 yrs, where would I be?
HHHMMMmmmmmmmmm.....


I do enjoy my work.
BUT...
Some factors cause more stress than satisfaction at work.
- super stress with appraisal because of my outstanding mc last yr and super low ward attendance.
- having to entertain non- nursing workload at work, which deprived us precious time for truly important things.
- and so much of discipline, rules & regulations to abide. *stressful environment*



All the more I should study degree,
and with that I would leave the hospital... bye bye then.



Wonder if I would still hold the same thinking after my bond complete.
Who knows I might be so attached to sgh by then... *_?



I am working permanent morning shifts until next wednesday.
They intend to let me do massive discharges everyday this week for cny.
-_-'''
6 days straight of waking up damn early. SHUCKS.
I am not a morning person.


Looking forward to cny...
not because of ang baos...
But new clothing to wear wohoho =)

What to say?
If only I could change my attitude in a relationship.
Less demanding and more magnanimous.

2 hours of pumping on my 1st nite.
And the last 2 nites were big projects.
I'm so glad it was over.
I deserved my 5 days off =)



Today at Orchard with Jen,
I bought the white skirt I saw the other day,
and 2 pairs of shoes...
My... Can someone teach me how to curb my spendings?



Have I not mention my resolutions for this yr?

1st- lesser mc. by half.
2nd- spend wisely. and save more.
3rd- look after my health.


Simple not?

My pet, Micko

I started playing pet society in facebook lately...
Not exactly like neopet, u do more than feeding and playing with it.
U earn coins by playing games, visiting friend's house, bathing n brushing them, and of course feeding them.
And with the coins, u got to buy food, furnitures, clothing and other cute things...
Each stage u go, u earn an extra room.
Interestingly, u got to decorate n arrange ur newly bought furnitures in ur own rooms...
COOL ain't it.

Sounds pretty lame when I first started.
But I got a little obsessed after some time.
My pet is similar to me in a way.
We both like to spend. HAHA



And thank u XL for giving me a bed n sofa...
My pet is so happy! lolz



Today was my off day...
Went to Crystal Jade @ vivo with family n ming for makan.
Yummy... I simply love the 'liu sha pao'.



I bought a top again =)
Shopping always make a gal happy.



Nite shift coming up 2 days later,
but I still feel giddy n nausea.
Hope I can survive through my 3 nites.


I need my vitamins!

One of my new year resolution is to decrease my number of mc by half!


How?
I am sick again =(
Thanks god I'm off tomorrow.



Finally met up with poly cliques yesterday for our belated xmas gift exchange cum dinner.
So overdue... haha.
We had dinner at Jack's Place @Heeren. Steaks, salad, ice cream, chicken wings and tea
Everyone had a gift..... Plus the shirts I got for them from HK...
And CF's makan for us from Macau...
Nice nice... So festive ar. haha



Yesterday I did my clinical teaching round in the tutorial room.
I presented a case on my young patient whom was dangerously in ill.

She cried when she was told about her condition yesterday.
I am sad for her.
She could have a bright future but.....

Her mother would walk out of the room and get updates on the condition.
SHe doesn't want her daughter to see the agony n sadness inside her.
It must be painful to see her beloved daughter sufffering.

Today I saw the patient n the mother.
No more smiles on their faces.
My heart goes out to her.

Work issue

There are many times, especially the first few months at work,
thoughts of quiting after my bond occurred.
Even now, I still wonder if I should continue nursing after my remaining 1.5 yrs bond.

I would never forget that agony period during PRCP and that first 3 months as a registered nurse.
OMG. LIKE HELL.
Pressurized with workload, and stressed with my ever so demanding preceptor with 5 yrs of working experience, whom expected me to be as good as her.
She must think I am PERFECT.



I know some of my colleagues are upset n demoralised at work.
I couldn't say much to encourage them, because I don't know what kind of situations they are facing.
Just hope that they will gain more confidence, and don't let the past experiences hinder them.
What matters most is the present and the future.



Frankly, I also made many mistakes (though not so major) when I first started.
But it was a big deal to myself because they were mistakes which could be prevented if I took extra measures.

A friend told me I am a perfectionist whom expect the best, or rather perfection in everything I do and on others.

But I too learnt, I will not survive long if I can't let go of such situation.
I realised mistakes r inevitable, esp in this job.
I should learn to move on, and learn from it.
Over and gone.
So what if I had done something wrong, but harmless then?
Keep in mind and do the right thing now, is the way.



I hope, those whom r depressed and wanted to give up at work,
look at it in another light.
Nothing is that bad until u give up.
Do u think the latter part will do u any good if you rather avoid than facing the difficulty?
Ain't life all about challenges?



What doesn't kill me make me stronger =)



Somedays I seemed unapproachable and unfriendly.
I could be irritated at work, or bothered by personal matters too.
I know u r reading this.
Hope u will feel more encourage =)

Child's definition of LOVE

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?"
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
See what you think:



"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen," Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6

"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them." Jenny - age 8

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore," Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine -age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8

My 1st 2009 post

Happy new year to everyone while reading my 1st post in 2009 =)
Have anyone reflected back to last yr, and determined if it was memorable?
I had concluded mine as one.



On the last day of year 2008, we went St James to countdown.
I prefer powerhouse than dragonfly... The music are MUCH nicer, and more high.
We returned to sis's group at dragonfly for countdown during the last few mins.
WRONG CHOICE. Shd have stay put in powerhouse to countdown haha.
The songs in dragonfly sucks during that last few mins.
I thought I had stepped into a teochew concert. WTH


Here are the pictures.... =)

*clap clap*

weird faces

We left early and ming sent us home...

REched home at 3am plus...

And slept for only 2 hours and woke up for work, haha.

Kudos to CF and I, both of us working morning shift.

Thanks to ming, whom slept in the living room for that 2 hours n sent me to work that early.

And I had mac's breakfast too :)

And after work, we went to beach road to buy some things and had early dinner.

It was good...

We had 2 person's set meal-

-herbal prawns (n the prawns r fresh),

-veg (kai lan n mushrooms),

-beancurd (my fav egg bancurd),

-noodle soup and lastly dessert (white fungus with rock sugar).

Only for $35 bucks. No GST and no SERVICE CHARGE.

But their service was good and the staff were initiative when serving us.

I told ming I am so willing to pay them service charge for their humble services -_-''

I was reading a primary school friend's blog for the 1st time and felt the emotions he had when going through breakup with his gf of 3 yrs.

And guessed the possible reasons why the gf left.

Ain't it sad?